The Juice

My Journey

In The Beginning

There’s a one-story brown bricked house slightly up on a hill from the street. Trees scattered through the yard along with a wraparound garden. My grandmother would spend all year around maintaining it. She is short and sweet. With short dark brown (now currently grey throughout) hair that clings to her face. She always hadContinue reading “In The Beginning”

You’re Not Alone

During my first two years living entirely alone I disconnected from a lot of people around me. For many different reasons, not all of them personal. I found my time fully consumed. Between stress, work, and being a dad, by the time I got a moment to breathe it was all I could do to musterContinue reading “You’re Not Alone”

6 A.M.

Io.0M What are some triggers any of you discovered about yourselves? Which ones have been the most difficult to cope with? Comment below or message. I awoke this morning to the familiar buzzing of a text message to my phone. Let’s be honest though, I was never really asleep to begin with. I don’t sleepContinue reading “6 A.M.”

Rest Stop

Here I am once more. Finding myself stuck, feeling no real direction. Unsure of the next move to make.  When you deal with mental health, these moments are very impactful. It’s like I described in a previous post about being bed ridden from depression. This is the same sensation, on a much smaller scale. I’veContinue reading “Rest Stop”


I finally understand what it means. As cliché as the phrase is it has changed my life. What people do not say is what you must do before simply “choosing” to be happy. I had to understand I was responsible for my unhappiness. That does not mean I was responsible for everything that had ever happened to me. ItContinue reading “Happiness”

I Lay Awake Sometimes

There you are sitting or lying quietly alone. Your shoulders begin to feel heavy. Eyes begin to water, almost tingling. Sadness slowly rolls over you. Suddenly, you realize you feel…bad? No that doesn’t describe it. Now noticing you’re cold, you become aware something else is happening. “Am I sick?”, you ask yourself. No, you’re not sick.Continue reading “I Lay Awake Sometimes”

Journey with Hope

There is a lot I find hard to remember from my time in Afghanistan, and the military in general.  Sometimes I wonder if this is my mind slowly removing memories that are toxic to my health. Or if this is a positive sign I am, in fact, moving on from the experience.  I am healing. Continue reading “Journey with Hope”

Looking Deeper Within

The year is 2013. Walking quietly through the dark in step with one of my closest friends, saying nothing. Nothing but the familiar sound of sand and tiny rocks crunching and cracking beneath our boots. We make our way to the USO (United Service Organizations), where you can hangout and have time on the phonesContinue reading “Looking Deeper Within”


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